I writing this during the game 2 World Series RED Sox vs Cardinals. Everytime I see a game at Fenway Im just in awe. I have such great memories there even though I have only attended 1 game there vs the Rays and have been on the tour as well. Maybe its my connections and love I have for that area and that great city. I have ancestry from there, my Grandfather and my Brother both served their LDS Missions in Boston/ New england Area, my brother was also sealed to his bride in April 2012 in the Boston LDS Temple. I had the chance to go with my Best friend for the first time, that less than 30 hrs I was there we did so much, but yet still didnt see all that there is to see there I even when I was there for 5 days with Alex I saw a lot but history wise I'd love to explore it more. When I see this Sox team I see no nervous player they are confident but not cocky, even with the younger players. Its funny but fun to see that they are bearded superstitous men! Papi, Pedroia, Ellsbury, Stephen Drew even a former dback is holding his own thus far in the series. So after I wrote this the Cardinals tied up the series 1-1 !

Me at a Dbacks game on Sept 24th, 2011 When the lights went out!

Me and my Baby Sister Andreah Posing at her Wedding Party on October 1st, 2011

look at this!

A fellow friend of mine has inspired me to start up my blog or blogs again! She just posted her first of the year and so im gonna start this daily I hope!?! So even if i write it may sometimes be lyrics of songs or just me and my Rambling! It may be me writing of my usual heart ache heart break or love love lovey dovey! I may be in a ho hum mood or just quite rude! I am a MAn I have dreams I have addictions i have a lot to give when it comes to knowing me!I may just say Im bored i may say your LAme!So sometimes my grammar and punctuation Will Repeat will Not exist! goodnight all gotta find some sleep.Im trying to go to the Coyotes Practice by 1130am.Hope to get some groovin AutographS!

Just A Dream "Nelly"

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.
She left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.

:(

I have Season Tickets for the Phoenix Coyotes Hockey Team,and I dont want them to leave! This is one of my outlets! Going to the games,yelling and screaming and cheering! I did invite somebody to the game last night but couldnt go in the end! I miss my Brother going to the games with me! He is on a Mission in Boston,and there is no other place i'd rather have him be though! I feel very alone,Im waiting for my love!

ALEX is going! HE GOT his call!!

MASSACHUSETTS BOSTON MISSION, HAITIAN CREOLE SPEAKING! HECK YES!

Whomever reads my blogs!!

I AM NOT SORRY FOR POSTING WHATEVER I FEEL! :) So love it or hate it or hate me or love me, Our Heavenly Father Is my Only Judge,and is everybody else's too!!!:)

missin' someone that has no name,but i will find her! :)

Darling I miss thee! where might thou be? I know your out there! Make it known to me who u are,i know your looking for me! I miss u even though we havent met yet! I need u near to me at this time more than ever! When we meet I will know if it is u that i am seeking! u as well will the sAME IM SURE! I love u ~

KANSAS CITY LDS TEMPLE Y'ALL!!!

As most of you know I served My Mission in the Kansascity area,so all the efforts of all the Missionaries and all the Saints are going to be recieving even greater blessings as they will be able to serve the Lord in an even Greater capacity! It gives me Tears of great Joy to be able to be apart of something so Awesome! And to all my fellow Elders and Sisters i served with all i can say is We did it! Its all because of Our Heavenly Fathers Love that we will have this Temple and Many more! :)

Challenges!

I just love when things seem to go right the Lord always throws a challenge at you! I have had many lately! I cant wait till We can hear from the chosen Leaders of the church this weekend during General Conference! I could use to hear there inspiring words which come from our Heavenly Father! I could use a Boost! :0

Who Can I Trust?

Do I trust you?

Do you trust me?

Can you be here with me?

Will you Leave me?

Staying Here with me would be the Greatest!

Dont tear me down,give your thoughts and I'll share you mine!

I dont want you to go! I'll change anything that you see that I need to change!

STAY,DONT LEAVE!...............SHE LEFT..WITHOUT SAYING A WORD..

I Love Gods Plan And I Know Its True! His Church Has BeeN Restored! President Monson Is his Prophet! And I am so excited to hear all his Leaders In General Conference!

Love is what i have

love is what u need

do u feel love?

Or do u feel hurt?

What is it,or who is it that can give u this Love?

Is there room enough to help u remove the hurt and let Love in?

tell me what he did to hurt you, and i will take the hurt away! tell me why it hurt you and i will turn the why into never ever again! what is your challenges what are your secrets what are your passions and dreams,did he tear them down when you would tell him your feelings your thoughts and your dreams? Tell me those things and i will make them apart of me,because your dreams your feelings and the thoughts i want to know i want them to come true because truly i Love you! I can take the pain away! I will stand up for you in any kind of a fight! Share this mystery with me,you can trust me! I will protect you I will provide for you!Let me hold you and be so close and never let go!

So I'm Just Playing things by ear i guess!? I am looking for work im still dealing with certain issues i know im not alone but sometimes it feels like it! Im thankful for all my many blessings!I just have a lot of stressing things happening, and all I would like to do is Be with somebody!!! Everybody deserves that in there lives regardless of the current situations they may be in!I just hope sometime that I will get caught up! And hopefully I can start this school that i have been wanting to attend! I miss the encouragement I used to have,besides my family! I think everyone knows what im talking about!

you dont say a word and Ignore Me! you are there and i am here! when u arrive i feel such great joy,but when u see me what do u feel? WE sit and are close,when u leave it feels Lonesome!The closeness is tight it makes me want to hold each other all night! when u leave do u miss that? I do! Im a little shy,but everytime your near I become more Alive!

Tribute 9/11

I thank God every day! Thankful To live in this Country, even if it may be Corrupt! And you cant tell me its not! My Heart Goes Out to all the Families who lost those close to them every race,religious background,sex,anything! What those evil people did was dispickable! Police,Fire,ETC those who helped in helping others! Military WE know you are doing whats being asked we know u do this for us and I SAlute everyone! People Make Mistakes but this Problem we will never forget!

Hey Y'all I lost a former co-worker today! His name Is Nick Crevelone,he worked with me when i was at Comtrans! He always was a jokester! I miss the lil Italian!RIP lil Nicky!

an overwhelming feeling

I have this feeling at this very moment the Lord is talking to me, i cant deny the feeling! the wait I am going through is a test! I am not saying a word but i am still here! Only the Lord knows what I want and need and what i am enduring! Its now a burning sensation and it makes me nervous as well! I can only imagine what others in my situation could possibly feel also! I am very grateful i feel this way at this moment!

Im tired!

Im tired of all the Judgement against myself and others! If anyone has read my 1st Blog post then you know my History especially within the past year or so! I wrote that to weed out some people that I thought would Leave anyway and misjudge me because of my past! So I deleted my Posting's and I am starting this Blog all over again! If you are reading this and dont know anything about my history please ask me. As most of you know since the day after the Divorce I have been Dating! I am not sure sometimes what I am doing,but I know I enjoy getting to know people and being around them! A lot of them have ending up Breaking My Heart! But I guess thats supposed to happen? I truly Have A Great Love to Share! I Just hate the Drama and the Waiting! If you Know me when I am in an relationship I am never the one to call it off,I am the 1 always trying to work things out! NOBODY WILL PROBALLY READ THIS LOL! So please let me know if you are interested in not judging, because the Lord is our only judge!